9.18.2012

It's time.

For the past several months, I've been running two blogs simultaneously -- one about our slow moving house renovation (Thirtyeight20), and the other about random stuff and baby antics (Cabin Fervor). I was quite pleased with this arrangement for awhile. Compartmentalization is good sometimes, especially when you have a blog about your house, and you and your house aren't getting along all that well, and you just want to think and write about anything else. Cabin Fervor has been a quiet but welcome distraction for me.

Besides, come on, what a cute blog name!

Months later, I'm still not getting along with my house. I woke up yesterday in a righteously grumpy mood, realizing that this week marks the fourth anniversary of our ownership of this house. We've come a mighty long way, but there's still so much left to do. I don't feel like writing down all the words that are coming to mind about it because many of them are depressing, but suffice it to say, if I could go back four years and sit down at that mortgage broker's table, I would probably not sign those papers that were spread out all over it. I mean, you know you've made a terrible mistake when the pizza delivery boy calls you and says, "I'm not sure I'm at the right place... Well, there's like a whole bunch of weeds and a big dumpster out front..." and you have to admit he is, in fact, sitting in the driveway of the house where you have lived for almost four years. Granted, I am grateful for the roof over my head and the two people I get to share it with, but we've been through a lot because of this house, and we've missed out on a lot too. I usually try not to think about it in those terms, but sometimes, like when you feel bad that your curious explorer baby can't run freely in every room in her own home, it's hard to ignore that little pang of regret.

But, despite the desire to compartmentalize, it's time for the double-blogging to end. It was more a symbolic separation than anything--considering mostly the same people read both blogs--and I've come to terms with my reasons why I needed that separation. Now I need simplicity. One blog, one place to make my moans heard, one place to berate myself for being indecisive, one place to share our progress and my excitement over little victories in parenthood. One place to manage my own expectations instead of what everyone else thinks.

Welcome to www.cabin-fervor.com.

That, in case you hadn't noticed, is where you are right now. From here on out, this is the place to be, complete with its own fancy url to make it official. All my Cabin Fervor posts have now come to live here (sorry if I blew up your feed when I imported them all), so all my content should be happily married here in this space. After a few design tweaks like a new header and some more url rerouting, things will be pretty much the same as before, but with more random non-house-related stuff thrown in to keep things interesting.

So, just so we're clear, Thirtyeight20 = Cabin Fervor = Thirtyeight20 = awesome. It will be so until I decide it won't anymore, and then we'll collect our things and carry on someplace else.

Maybe at a new house after I burn this one to the ground.


11 comments:

  1. oh, so THAT is what happened, with the old posts popping up, now I get it

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  2. Gotcha. Now I only have to keep up with the one blog. Easy peasy.

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    1. Slightly annoying right? I'm a blogging primadonna. But one will hopefully be easier.

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  3. Hello there! I just looked through your "current house tour" and I have to say, the rooms that you've finished look AMAZING. Really. (I also looked through the "before" photos, and you were dealing with some really serious messes. Random hidden staircase??)

    I'm 24 and my dream is to buy and fix up a really old house some day - I regularly drool over This Old House magazine - but I don't think I could do it yet. Anyway, this random person on the internet thinks what you're doing is great. I'm sorry to hear that you and the house aren't getting along.

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    1. Thanks Anne! I truly appreciate your kind words and for saying hello to this random stranger. The house and I definitely have our moments (sometimes our extended moments...) but it's not all bad. I wouldn't be blogging about it at all if it I didn't hold some shred of love for it in my heart. It definitely takes a passion to tackle this kind of project -- I hope you get to fulfill your dream someday! FYI I was 24 when we bought our house, and that seems so long ago now!

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  4. I'm wich-chew, no matter what your url.
    (What's a url?)

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  5. I try to compartmentalize sometimes and separate blogs and I always end up combining them back together. It's too hard to keep up with more than one unless I'm getting paid to do it. :)

    It's funny you are feeling the whole "i want to burn this house down" feeling. jon has been there for a little while - I think that comes from working nonstop on the place you also inhabit. it's normal because there is always going to be SO many other things to do before it's considered finished. take a break when you can and know that the stuff you have finished looks really amazing. one day at a time! :)

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  6. Here's another random internet reader who says hang in there with the house. You guys have done an amazing job - you should be really proud. I know it takes time (11 year into my house restoration and I've been tempted to see how flamable our old timbers are on more than one occassion), but you are well on your way to an impressive achievement. Step away from the matches and think about what a great place your daughter will have to grow up in. Thanks for letting us follow your progress and frustrations!

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    1. I'm sorry I never responded to this, but thank you!

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  7. As someone who's been following your progress, I really appreciate the honesty you put into this post. While I enjoy the utopian Blogosphere where everything is beautiful and our imaginary closets/houses are full of gorgeous things, it's sometimes disheartening that the honesty of the situation is never shared.

    Thanks for showing what dedication can create and the toll it can cause.

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